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Forgiving My Abuser

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Forgiving My Abuser

Dear Eddie,

I’ve never been as stumped for words as beginning this letter. Trust me, there are words I have for you that would be easy to spew all over the sheets of this letter, that is entirely to easy.

In my personal spiritual growth I know that I can’t climb any further up this mountain until my wounds are completely healed. I refuse to live another day with any weakness in the infrastructure of my being. I’ve studied, researched and had plenty therapy over forgiving but it wasn’t until God’s Holy Spirit filled me that I knew what it meant to forgive.

Forgiveness doesn’t make the sins you committed any less viscous. It doesn’t lessen the damage you’ve inflicted or soften the edges of the trauma on the innocent children involved and it doesn’t make me any less of a victim of your abuse.

I will no longer let the word “victim” defy me.

“AND WHENEVER YOU STAND PRAYING, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that you Father in heaven may also forgive your trespasses. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses.” (Mark 11:25)

I’m going to assume you have no knowledge of what a “soul tie” is.

A soul-tie is a spiritual linkage from one person to another. Demons can travel into this linkage and influence the people involved. The soul ties can be formed by sexual relationships, friendships, family relationships. An example of soul ties is when one person still has feeling for another even though the couple broke-up 10 years ago (in your case it’s chains of anger, shame, guilt, disgust). Ask the Holy Spirit to bring to your memory any unholy soul ties that are in your life and speak the soul tie breaking into the atmosphere. Believe that it is done in the name of Jesus Christ.

I Declare aloud!

“I break all unholy ties between me and Eddie in the name of Jesus Christ. I send back to Eddie all parts of him that are in me washed in the blood of Jesus Christ. I return all parts of me in Eddie to me washed in the blood of Jesus. I thank you Jesus that I am free.”

“I break all unholy ties between “Chance, Eve & Grace” and Eddie in the name of Jesus Christ. I send back to Eddie all parts of him that are in “Chance, Eve & Grace” washed in the blood of Jesus Christ. I return all parts of “Chance, Eve & Grace” in Eddie back washed in the blood of Jesus. I thank you Jesus that they are free.”

I rebuke your sins on us Eddie Parrish in the name of Jesus.

I’m fully armored and I raise my almighty sword and cut the ties between Eve, Grace, Chance and myself from your evil spirit. May God have mercy on your soul.

You were born into this world innocent. I don’t believe you are a spawn of Satan but you’ve been cursed from birth. I suggest you repent and spend the rest of your days praying to be delivered from your sins.

The hardest thing I have ever had to do is forgive you. If Jesus can forgive the men who crucified him then I can forgive you.

We are FREE of you..

I’ve prayed for illusions of what they thought was a father to be lifted and they now see God as their holy father. Luckily the girls have Trace as their earthly father and their love is unconditional.

I hope that during the next few years in jail you will have plenty of time to repent and become closer to God. If you don’t have a bible I will send you one. Leo Britt always said not to poke a skunk but as a Christian I am breaking those chains. I ask you not to confuse my forgiveness as an invitation into our lives. I will not have any future contact unless it is to send you requested literature on your salvation and the word of God.

Side note: I’ve addressed the envelope and the stamp package really cracked me up!

Leslie

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A Letter To Boot Camp.. Week 6

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Hey Buddy! WEEK SIX

I hope you had a descent 4th Of July. It sounds like you’re going to have another hard week. It is developing you into the AF man. That’s awesome! I know it seems like a never-ending process and you’re homesick.

Yesterday Trace and I went hiking up to the top of Stone Door. It’s July 4th and the temperature was 78 with not a lick of humidity. Awesome huh.. We’re postponing the wedding until October. We’re going to have a reception (worship/praise) at the church maybe. I’m hoping you can come home. I know you don’t know anything so we will just see if that will work.

Will you get to come home anytime between there and Colorado? You know there is a AFB in Tullahoma here.. We’re thinking about buying a house out that way in the country. Somewhere Grace can have animals and roam the wild. She needs nature! We were out in that area yesterday and God enlightened us on the benefits of that simple life and what being out on a “farm” would do for her. She needs rabbits and maybe a goat. A four-wheeler to ride around the fields. I think this town has a dark curse over the youth here. It’s one of the highest towns in the nation for teen suicide. That’s what our prayer leader said anyway. It makes sense! She can’t grow anymore here in this house and area. I would really like to have a couple of chickens too. lol

I love you so much buddy. I want you to know how proud I am of you. This time you’ve taken to plan your future was the best choice you could have made.

Our Father thank you for the life you trusted me with. Thank you for Mark and giving Chance a good earthy father. Somehow the balance of the of us has created a great son that is firm in his belief. I pray for your hand to be on his back pushing him forward during this last week. I pray in Jesus name that the Holy Spirit is more than abundantly present and he can rest knowing you gave your son for us. This is hard but it is nothing compared to what Jesus went through in order to save our souls. I pray dear Lord that when he feels the pain that you show him a vision of Jesus carrying the cross up to the hilltop. I pray in Jesus name that you place the sound “Because He Lives I Can Face Tomorrow” in his head and he will wake with that. Chance is a grateful child of yours and I pray that you protect him and give him more of the wisdom he has. I love you God, you’re a mighty awesome God.

In Jesus name I pray.. Sealing with a Amen.

I love you Chance. My plane lands Thursday evening. I’M SO EXCITED! I have to change planes in Dallas. I’m not afraid though. I’m not afraid of anything anymore! I have God with me…. SMILE!

Cya Soon!

Mom

A Letter To Chance

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A Letter To Chance

Dear Chance,

I’ve decided to write you on Tuesdays.

I figure you’re adjusting to your schedule and expectations by now. Things are going fine here. We’re having a graduation party for Lindsey this weekend. I’ve been a busy bee trimming the hedges, searching for cob webs in the corners of the ceiling and tidying away clutter. You know how I clean to perfection. I’m trying to stay calm so that I can enjoy the moment and be myself.

Your sister and your little brother “Greyson” are existing, I wouldn’t call them living.  You know how that ship sails! George wants me to tell you hello and he loves you. Trace is proud of you and knows you will excel in this field. From one geek to another!

I’m connecting to Jesus and God now and here is your prayer..

Dear Heavenly Father,

I want to thank you Lord for Chance. I pray that he stands true to his faith and has the courage to stand strong when challenged. I pray that when he’s stretched and feels he can’t go on one more second that you show him Jesus on the cross. I can do anything physically when I see this through your eyes. Bless Chance with that ability to see with your vision. I pray that when he is hungry and the meal hasn’t completely satisfied his hunger that he can distinguish between the physical and mental hunger. Dear Lord as his mother I pray for you to keep him warm at night with your spirit and comforted when he feels broken. I pray that Chance will seek your face at the beginning of his day so that he can wear you making him better ready for anything that comes his way. I ask the Holy Spirit to control his thinking and renew his mind. Cloth him with your precious, unconditional glorious love.

Sealed with a Amen XX

 

I learned that I had to stop praying to God and pray with him. As I develop my intimacy with him my prayers become more fluent. Sometimes I don’t even know where my words come from. I think a spirit takes over and prays through me. lol

I just read The 1st Core Value of an airman. Wow, that sums you up in a nutshell. I have so much pride in you son.

I love you and miss you.. I miss not being able to text you that when I want.

With Love,

Mom

 

Fat, Sick And Nearly Dead Movie Promo

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Fat, Sick And Nearly Dead Movie Promo

Fat, Sick And Nearly Dead Commercial Movie Promo

I was chose out of 12 amazing people in the US to fly to NYC and be in a commercial for Mr. Joe Cross. It was an honor and something I never in a million years thought I could ever do. This shows how much growth I’ve made since I discovered juicing and found my new life. I had never been on a plane, never to NYC and never alone traveling. I get great satisfaction knowing that the man who beat me down is in prison. I became someone and you became a prisoner.  I felt like I was able to prove to my family back home once and for all I was successful and I am important to a lot of people.

Behind The Scenes  Bloopers From NYC Promo Shoot

Dr. Wayne Dyer On Love

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Dr. Wayne Dyer On Love

“Think of the people you know who give love in response to negative energy that’s directed their way. There aren’t many people who respond lovingly in that situation. The ones who do are able to because they have love to give away. They know that it’s impossible to give away what they don’t have, and they’ve gone that extra mile to acquire what it is that they want to both attract and give away. If love and joy are what you want to give and receive, then begin by taking stock. What have you got to give away? What are you giving out to the universe, and thus, what are you attracting? Remember that you can’t give away what you don’t have, but you can change your life by changing what’s going on inside.
Low energy attracts low energy. Low energy thoughts, such as anger, hate, shame, guilt, and fear, weaken you. And they attract more of the same. By changing your inner thoughts to the higher frequencies of love, harmony, kindness, peace, and joy, you’ll attract more of the same, and you’ll have those higher energies to give away.
To begin to change what’s inside you, become more loving toward yourself. In your thoughts, cultivate an inner voice and attitude that’s 100 percent on your team. Imagine an inner self that only supports and loves you. You might schedule a certain time of day when that’s the only thought that you allow yourself to pay attention to. Gradually this loving attitude will extend to other people. You’ll begin to receive this energy back and ultimately be able to send thoughts of love and joy to everyone and everything in your world.
Make a pact to remind yourself often of this secret of not being able to give away anything that you don’t have. Then work on your personal program of self-love, self-respect, and self-empowerment, and create a huge inventory of what you wish to give away. If what you give is self-respect and self-love, the universe will return the love and respect you’ve been radiating. It’s really so simple. As the Beatles said: “The love you take is equal to the love you make.”

Dr. Wayne Dyer